Anxiety Rears Its Ugly Head

So yesterday Ryan and I were talking about the possibility of him trying to go back to work and maybe finding a job. His best friend, Doug, heads a big team where he works and said that he would have the power to hire Ryan with no problems. This would entail a move across the state for all of us, but then we would have income again. Well, last night after talking about it for a little while, Ryan had another anxiety attack after months of being just fine. We were able to soothe him enough for him to fall asleep, but the anxiety came back after he got up. The girls had a dentist appointment this morning, so I left Ryan with Julia, who was asleep. He had planned on getting caught up on housework while i had the girls out of the house, but instead the anxiety overwhelmed him and he became frozen again. I came home to him curled up in bed, hiding from the world, which is how his anxiety manifests. I had to take care of the immediate needs of the girls before I could care for him, so I got snacks, diaper changes, bottles, and did a huge load of dishes. I took the time to make sure to do some dishes because I know that clutter and an un-tidy house increases Ryan's anxiety. It doesn't help that we've been slacking, both of us, on the housework over the weekend. While I was working on dishes and taking care of the babies, I sent Amelia up to give Daddy hugs and kisses and hopefully snuggles, as "luvins" really help Ryan feel loved and important, which is so important when depression is a huge part of his anxiety. She said she would just give a hug and a kiss, but no snuggles. I was surprised when she stayed upstairs far longer than I expected. When I was finally able to get upsatairs myself, Ryan told me that they "went to Mars" and "avoided asteroids" and had some more fun space adventures while getting in some good snuggles for Daddy. :) I just don't know what we're going to do in the long run for income. I'm really hoping that some of the online opportunities that I'm looking into really pan out.