Down Kinda Day

Once again, my depression is starting to rear its ugly head. I have no reason to be depressed, I just spent most of my day with my girls and now I'm taking a little quiet time before I find something to do. BUT, I'm still depressed. This is so FRUSTRATING! I think a large part of it all is coming from a sense of being lost. I simply don't know quite who I am and what I'm supposed to be doing. There doesn't feel like there's very strong direction in my life. And then I don't know what I WANT to do with my life. What are my goals and my vision for myself? Obviously, my vision should coincide with God's vision, but what is that? I feel so lost and directionless. Where do I go from here? What do I do? And how to explain it all to my husband? Ah, Ryan. He is the love of my life, my anchor and my fortress. And yet, he is a fragile man. He has gone thru his hardships and pains this year. We both have a lot of healing yet to do. Do our life desires coincide? Is what I think I want and what he thinks he wants compatible? How can we compromise? How can we both be happy and satisfied?